I just gotta get myself over me...

HALF ASS!

Sat, 23 Apr 2005 18:33:40 GMT

wow, i havent update in so long. well alot has been going on. im still deciding on a college, but im leaning towards James Madison or Towson. im going to visit them over break. my friends arent that happy to hear that i might go to virginia but i dont have that many options. i started a new babysitting job recently that will go through the summer. five days a week after school...ill be at the pool quite often over the summer. last weekend i got a beer ticket because thats the luck i have. my parents werent that mad but of course were upset. all of my friends are going away over break except my tina. they'll all be back wed/thursday so its not that bad, plus im gonna visit those schools. i kinda found a prom dress but im not sure if i like it that much...ill show u guys:

you cant really see it but its jessica mcclintock. and of course it looks gorgeous on that girl. anyway prom should be alot of fun. i cant wait to just be with all my friends and get plastered. school is almost over. i have ap's coming up-stats and us history. so not looking forward to it. oh and i got my report card in! ouchh my mom wasnt too happy about that.

i hope something good is going on tonight.

Mon, 08 Nov 2004 03:22:58 GMT

im scared of going to college...my parents are convinced i am going to die of alcohol poisoning. funny right? im afraid nobodys gonna like me, but i cant wait to get away from everything. anyway i have so much to do it feels.

tonight i was watching sex in the city with marissa and i really want to have what they have: money, unlimited sex, best friends(already have that one), and amazing wardrobes. oc just didnt cut it for me this week, hopefully the season will be better. i saw SAW with marissa liz and tina. it was an amazing movie, creepy, but soo good.

why cant i just have what everybody seems to get so easily? i really have to start getting really fat friends so i can feel better about myself, im convinced thats what i need to feel confident.

i might visit my sister at York this weekend...but im not sure. thats my update

Sat, 02 Oct 2004 04:27:28 GMT

im so incredibly bored, so i decided to copy other people and do the
100 things you probably dont know about me...
1. im half irish half italian
2. yes im still 16 years old
3. my sisters and i hate each other, but i sometimes secretly feel the total oppossite
4. i have no idea where i would be without my friends, alone and bored?
5. im a huge party animal
6. i love music, it's what heals me, motivates me, and pumps me up for the night
7. i write my own lyrics
8. i wear glasses/contacts
9. i had bladder surgery when i was 2
10. i had a hip displacement problem when i was born and had to wear a brace overnight
11. i wish i could meet my grandma and grandpa
12. im scared that my great aunt and uncle(pretty much my grandparents) will not be able to attend my wedding
13. im scared that i wont even get married
14. ive never been in love
15. ive only had one boyfriend in my lifetime and it was for less than a week
16. im very outgoing, sarcastic, and honest
17. also sensitive
18. my parents barely know me
19. alcoholism runs in my family
20. so does heart disease
21. my grandma's psycho and almost feel embarrassed to be around her
22. am really embarrassed that my parents are pretty much the only parents i know that neither went to college.
23. am really proud that i live in this neighborhood and neither of my parents went to college.
24. my sisters call me fat, sincerely, and little do they know that same night i cry about it
25. i have no self confidence whatsoever
26. ill like a guy but it'll never go past that
27. my way of flirting is to make fun
28. ive been to ireland, italy, mexico, bermuda, and other islands down there
29. my great uncle still owns the family farm thats been in longford, ireland for almost 100 years
30. i love to go to concerts
31. i have to pay for everything and am by no means spoiled
32. i am in St. Joseph's Girls Choir
33. ive met the Pope
34. my cousin in a tatoo artist(wink wink)
35. i feel that if i get drunk i could get a guy...wrong theory
36. i would love to be a radio dj or something in that business
37. i know too many musical random facts
38. i most likely know the lyrics or chorus to every song on the radio
39. i hate college applications
40. i am the biggest procrastinator
41. i get caught every single time i have people over, even if its 5 people
42. ive gotten an appearance ticket at the meadow
43. ive gotten kicked out of bogarts
44. i brought 6 beers in and drank it right in front of them
45. ive been stranded at bogarts and had no money for a taxi and asked cops for a ride home and sat on the curb crying til 2:30 am until random girls from babylon drove me home-classic
46. my parents dont know how hard school is and how much pressure it is for colleges nowadays
47. i have absolutely no connections for anything
48. ive never met a celebrity
49. i would love to study abroud for a semester
50. i thought itd be cool to be on real world
51. i will be driving the green monster...aka the taurus
52. i hate being the middle child
53. i dont have any cavities
54. i broke my wrist falling off a scooter in 8th grade
55. sometimes my friends really dont understand me at all
56. sometimes my friends understand me without any words spoken
57. i dont regret anything in my life
58. i feel i have no great accomplishments
59. i hate being afraid of death
60. im afraid i wont be able to fulfill my dreams
61. im afraid to leave my friends for college because i know it wont be the same without them
62. i have no true enemies, i just dislike many people
63. i judge people way too quickly and easily
64. i am jealous of so many people and can never accept who i truly am
65. i dont know who i truly am
66. i hate being scared
67. i try to pretend that i dont care what people think about me
68. thats all i think about
69. im a terrible writer
70. i hate english, social studies and as of now stats
71. im a terrible artist
72. i try to accessorize and be very city-like but it never works
73. im incredibly lazy
74. i hate immaturity
75. i hate drama
76. i always seem to be involved in every fight
77. i have to stick up for what i believe in and i have to make a valid point if relevant
78. im very relaxed and always up for a good time
79. i try to be adventurous
80. i would love to get plastic surgery
81. i hate guys in gc
82. i complain way too much
83. i love the nights when there's nothing to do and you and ur friends just drive around and yet have an amazing time
84. i am very friendly
85. i try to make a friend with every new person i meet
86. im a pretty thrifty shopper, if i dont need it, i wont get it
87. i hate when my friends are drunk and im not
88. i hate hypocrites
89. i cant stand ignorant people
90. i dont believe i could find a guy that could ever replace the love i give and receive to and from my friends
91. ive considered going on survivor just to lose weight
92. i dont give people enough credit
93. i get grounded all the time and get out of it pretty much right away
94. ive never tried any other drug than pot
95. i dont intend to
96. but i never say never
97. im jealous that my friends can hu with anybody they want to and not have to worry about getting attached
98. im so vulnerable
99. im really mostly a positive kind of person this list just doesnt seem to illustrate that
100. i hate when people misunderstand and misinterpret you

well thats it for now...comment please, i was really bored and just did this. well hope you all found this interesting, those of you who actually read all of it. goodnight.

Sun, 05 Sep 2004 18:33:15 GMT

~do something like lauren did~

summer 2004 consisted of...
-mets game(of course getting drunk there too)
-beachhhh
-work
-shitty club experience in the city
-east hampton
-bogart's
-getting an appearance ticket
-crying on the curb outside of bogarts, trying to get a ride and ending up getting a ride home from some random babylon girls at 2:30
-getting kicked out of bogarts and EVERYBODY knowing about it
-all the random parties
-edit:UDP (it was a typo)
-steve's house
-erins house out east
-being grounded half the time
-and last but not least PEANUT BUTTER SKIP!

this has been an amazing summer, and i never think it can be topped, but it always does.
i love my friends, i love the random kids i meet, and most of all i love bogart's(NOT). if anybody would like to know any of the details from bogarts be sure to ask lauren, shell tell u everything.

Tue, 17 Aug 2004 01:25:52 GMT

i havent written a real entry on here in a long time...so ill give it a shot

this summer has been really fun, ive been hanging out with the best people in the entire world. im going to be a senior and im getting so pumped and also really motherfucking sad.

ive been working all summer, 5 days a week 9-5 and it sucks, i dont wanna grow up. i want a fun job, something that is original and unique and just for me. since ive been working, i am as pale as ever and ive been having to come home "early" because i have to wake up early which really pisses me off, my parents dont understand that this is my summer going into senior year, i have to live it up!...

one of the best things i did this summer was pool hopping and im def doing it again. seriously next summer im gonna do nothing. i only had to work to pay off my trip to cancun again with andrea! wooo cant wait! everybodys leaving and it sucks, i mean i dont have that many friends going away, but those that i do are so chill and its gonna be weird not seeing them anymore.

yesterday i went to the mall with marissa and then after that i got ready quickly, found out i had no ride to her house since my parents abandon me and marissa had to pick me up, then we got a 12 of nattie ice aka nattie death, and um her and i got picked up and went to james' house and just drank to death, i guess i had 6 and believe me 4 nattie ices can get me fucked so i was pretty good. i came home relatively early cause i knew my mom was pissed at me and i went straight to my room and felt SO sick, so after throwing up last night i got yelled at for "making a mess in the bowl" than drinking...i think my parents have given up cause they found out i went to bogarts and my mom was just like so how was bogarts like in a joking matter, im like wow they def dont care about me...but thats awesome! so then my dad wanted to have a talk with me about ::insert throw-up noise::, thought that was funny, but yea so i stayed in tonight cause i know itll satisfy their grounding needs and then ill go out whenever...everybody go to bogarts on wed. aright well this is a damn long entry and i better stop now before i lose all of it. going jogging now so i can feel better about myself. later

Sat, 14 Aug 2004 05:07:53 GMT

um just got home and i drank a little, but im not that drunk, i had a good time tonight lol playing war with maris at tinas when she was getting ready, and then going to laurens and then stopping by turch's, then goin to franklin square where some guys mightve seen me popping a squat--oh well what are u gonna do, well later

partayyy

Sat, 31 Jul 2004 01:04:35 GMT

heyyyy yall its marissa here

annies at my house..we're just gettin ready to go out and partayyy
she just showed me her cute lil undies, nice choice dork
now she is looking thru my shelf for any alcohol, all the bottles are empty tho :( sucks for her

behold: we have just come across a hugeee bottle of heineken in a champagne-sized bottle- however its from christmas, prob not tooooo good but hey its alcohol itll work

soo coreys a homo and she wants to drive againnn but i dont want her to becuase shes sleeping over and the parentals are out so we can stay out lateee
but of course shes gay and doesnt wanna dooo thattt

i like livejournals..i dont have one tho :( so im gonna take over annies cause she never updates

i dunno who else has ljs but i kno that lauren does, so what up lauren!! andd melissa too, heyyy girl!

haha who else can i make a shout out to?? tinaaa of course! how can i forget! whats goin onnn..you ditched us tonight! come meet up with us after adventureland- i dunno why im saying this cause obviously ur not gonna read it till at least tomorrow, oh well

anddd sarah! how ya been? i havent talked to you in so longgg, let me know if ur still alive

ok i think we're going out now, its been real
talk to ya all laterrr
peaceee

Sat, 31 Jul 2004 00:49:11 GMT

"yo yo whattup its anne its anne, im at marissas"...marissa told me to say that but shes a fag, anyway im at her house getting ready and we're bored trying to find plans but of course gc never has any bangin parties so we're screwed once again, so yea im gonna go but marissa wanted to update

Thu, 22 Jul 2004 04:50:38 GMT

i honestly hate myself right now, i did something that i know that i shouldnt have. i just wanna say that i love my friends so much, and that they are my backbone. they help me through everything and i love them so much. i try so much to help them and to not get into bad habits, but sometimes u just have to let them learn for themselves. i feel like the mother of the group because i am looking out for the wellbeing of the group rather than the fun and myself. its because i love them so much, i dont know what i would do without them, not even using that as a phrase, i really dont know what i would do if anything happened to them. i would do anything for them....anything. if that means them getting mad at me for telling them the right thing to do, i dont care as long as i help them. they are my sisters, more than that because my sisters dont mean nearly as much as u girls do, and from my heart i love u more than anything, and thats not an exaggeration...i love you girls.

ali, erin, kieran, and lauren....ur my best friends for life and nothing will break us apart, i just hope that u guys feel the same for me--i love you forever

Sun, 27 Jun 2004 22:16:53 GMT

so this weekend was the first weekend of summer. it was amazing. friday night we all went to ali's house and that was alot of fun up until i became retarded and didnt wanna do anything. then last night i decided to be the sober one and i actually had more fun than i thought i would have. we started out at will's house and then moved to ali's house where we were gonna have some other people over but a huge misunderstanding stopped that from happening. me kieran and ali just chilled at alis house with all of rob's friends. we made an a&s run at 3:30 in the morning where i drove alis car, very fun. then we slept over and woke up and today i went miniature golfing with andrea. soooo much fun and i won by a point. yea so tomorrow is my first day at work which is gonna suuuuckkk but hey its money. so im not sure if im going out tonight. peace.

Fri, 18 Jun 2004 17:59:47 GMT

just took my last test today...its summmer, wow i cannot wait. my friends are the best friends ever and we are gonna have the best time of our life this summer.

i really need to party this weekend and week cause im starting work like in 2 weeks. suckss. anyways im out.

Sat, 05 Jun 2004 05:35:46 GMT

havent updated in a while. today was an ok day. school went pretty quick and then after school i went to the mall with marissa and corey to help marissa find a prom dress. then after that i babysat.

tomorrow is soccerfest at st. pauls for special soccer. its supposed to rain tho, so hopefully i dont have to go. i am so bored right now.

oh yea on wednesday? i went to the nurse and was all like yo whats this and showed her my arm and shes all like 'omg thats a rash u have to leave school right now!' so im like arite chill out lady. so my mom picks me up and the nurse is standing like 50 feet away from me scared shitless of it. she was like u can come back into school without a note stating that you are not contagious[which is pretty funny cause i told my doctor that and shes like well ur nurse should know that a rash isnt contagious once it breaks out] oh well...so it turns out that its sunburn? on the inside of my arm? im a little skeptical and its starting to itch but i think its all mental.

next week is the last week of classes then i have my finals and then thats it! im off the second week of finals WOO! i cant wait for summer. im gonna be working 24/7 but oh well. 5 days a week 9-5. yea bitch, but i need the money for the plane ticket to cancun!! i think im gonna go again! ahhhh. this summer i know is gonna be the shit.

my sister and her bf just walked in the house...soo drunk. he came up to me and kissed me and hugged me. my sister got mad at him haha. oh how i love pete hammered.

i think im gonna go to bed now

Tue, 25 May 2004 19:39:47 GMT

id like to introduce you to tina's son john jr.

p.s. sry u cant really see his shoe(it says nike and his clothing says american eagle

Wed, 19 May 2004 22:06:52 GMT

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Wed, 19 May 2004 00:35:46 GMT

hmmm

i passed my road test

Mon, 17 May 2004 01:36:59 GMT

i havent updated in forever. well whats going on....oh yea got my SAT scores, and im not depressed and frankly i dont give a shit cause im taking them in october. umm im going to hershey on a band trip [yes thats right im a band geek] with lauren--just me and you babe but we'll have a blast! also tuesday im taking my road test!! AHHHH, im nervous. everybody pray for me!

this weekend was just ok, i got to chill with the girls on friday night, just drove around nothing happened. then last night i babysat for like 6 1/2 hours and got $80. WOOO! happy about that cause im BROKE. what else, oh yea badminton ended, um i have 18 days of classes left---wow.

i just realized that rain makes everybody horny. last night i was talking to a few people and we all agreed on having an orgy sometime this week. anybody in just let me know and ill make arrangements. the hornier, the merrier.

Tue, 04 May 2004 01:35:46 GMT

i just watched the movie Thirteen and it is the best movie ever. if u havent seen it you should go get it right now. um yea i wanna be exactly like them. they can get away with anything. oh and i also wanna get my tongue pierced. its a really sad movie though.

alrite well, today was the last day of driver's ed driving, im gonna miss mr. kaste...yea he was chill. im taking my road test may 18th. im really nervous, im taking it in freeport though so hopefully being out of gc will make me more focused.

sat night i went to liz's house for robbie's surprise bday party. it was awesome cause he was completely surprised. after that i thought we were all hanging out then i ended up chilling with the most random group but it was so much fun.

school is almost over. which means summer is coming. which means i have to find a job. somebody please help me find one. something not too hard. babysitting would be the best for me(except i hate being mother's helper, sucks when they see what ur doing). yea so my parents are convinced that im going to nassau, and im almost giving in to them. just thinking that im too lazy to look at colleges and make an effort to get into them and write essays and shit. its just gonna suck. by the way i took the sats on sat. they completely sucked. um yea i hate how one test evaluates ur ability at verbal and math. that sucks cause im not a test taking person, i hate them.

badminton is ending this week, so sad, so sad. softball starts on wed tho. SO EXCITED!! woo its gonna be awesome. i cant wait.

Fri, 23 Apr 2004 17:48:37 GMT

so im in english right now killing myself. and um yea i would have had detention but the secretary was cool and said it starts monday. this means that i can go practice with my team..."the Land Sharks" at nassau haven. woooo, wow this is gonna be one pathetic practice. i dont even have like any clothes or shit oh well. tonight i think im grounded so i might go to the play, "footloose", and tomorrow night i have to babysit, so my weekend is pretty much shot. later

ps somebody next to me is reading this as i type lol

Sun, 18 Apr 2004 19:57:01 GMT

just had the biggest fight with my mom over SAT's, thats pathetic. they control our lives, and i just cant stand it anymore. she said that i dont do enough work for them and whatever. and then she goes into how i never study for anything and dont do any hw, when yet i never have hw and i dont believe in studying, i listen and thats how i get good grades. like im not stupid and they think i am. the only thing i need to study for is vocab and i really think like how am i supposed to learn all these words in what like 12 weeks? when i havent learned them in 16 years. so yea thats my philosophy plus i figure if u study for them yea ur gonna get into a good school, but you should be going to a school that fits your level and not go to someplace where u arent going to do well in...idk im just weird, so yea i hate life and i hate school and i hate how college means everything in this world. i also love how all my friends are smarter than me and will go to better schools than me and my parents are gonna be like oh that couldve been u if u did more of this and more of that. i dont even know what i wanna do in life, so right now college is more of a precedent that im following. whatever i just love how my parents are assholes and treat me like im some retard that wont be able to get into any college. if the school doesnt offer enough financial aid than i cant go there pretty much so yea even if its my dream school, my parents would never let me go there.

Sat, 17 Apr 2004 02:47:41 GMT

Wednesday night i ended up going to the Midtown/Armor For Sleep show at the downtown with mike williams. i had to take the train there all by myself! saw some people there. it was an awesomee show. thursday we had a badminton match at gchs and almost won. i was doing pretty well. today we had another match at valley stream central. wow i hate that team so much. we lost by one game. sucks. Tonight i went to Karaoke Night at the school. it was a good time considering there was abosolutely nothing else to do tonight. "Mo' dimes, Mo' healthy babies." Rebecca and i were there representing Echo and doing one article so we can get credit for doing it the "entire year" for college. tomorrow i have special soccer at 11:30 til 1 and then i have to babysit 2-5. Any parties tomorrow night? sunday i have SAT course at 11...ahh its SOOO close. im so nervous. im slacking sooo much, i really should study my words. i know im just gonna be upset with my score and regret not doing more work. its just a pain in the ass. im so bored, i wanna be at skate n surf right nowwww.

ps: anybody wanna help me on a new layout?

Tue, 13 Apr 2004 16:07:27 GMT

So im here babysitting and of course im bored so im gonna update

this vacation was ok....not thattt great, but anyway i stayed with my cousin from saturday til thursday and that was fun i made new friends and hopefully we can all chill again. then um i had fucking choir on holy thursday and that was from 6:30 til 10 and it sucked, so i just came home and supervised my little sister's "get together"? and my older sister had her friends over so it wasnt that bad. everybody slept over and um yea friday me ali lauren mike sean matt and james went to some party in bayside and well it ended up that the kid made everybody put money in for some girl cause money was stolen from her bag, makes sense? not really, so of course the cheap person i am i threw in like quarters, lemme tell ya the kid really appreciated it "4 DOLLARS LEFT, THATS ALL I NEED!" hahahah hysterical "thanks guys for the lunch money...i mean for helping this girl out" yeaaa anyway that was pretty funny there were people from the city and connecticut there it was so random. after that i got dropped off at taco bell and saw my favorite boys...jon brendan tom blaise and strk...brendan and i got into a fight but thats ok. sean drove me home and my sister came home like shitfaced with all her friends at like 4 and they all slept over. then saturday we just cleaned the house and katie went to go pick my parents up at the airport and um i stayed home? cause im cool but then sean lauren mike CASEY! and kieran picked me up and saved me. we drove around and did nothing. easter sucked it was so boring i had to sing too so that sucked even more and of course the loving parents i have dont come to my mass and sleep in and im thinking they're there the entire time so i was mad at them for that. and last night was ok but considering it was the last night of vacation it should've been better. ali lauren and i just drove around in mikes car and made it an early night. well there's my spring break update hope you all enjoyed it.

edit: anybody going to the midtown/armor for sleep show on wednesday at the downtown? if you are let me know cause i really wanna go but merry cant go and im not sure if kieran would want to

Fri, 09 Apr 2004 20:38:01 GMT

so um yea i got home yesterday and im happy im back at my house, i just wish i can hang out with my friends more! i have to get ridiculously drunk tonight because then i can just walk in my house as late as i want, and well yea thats a good enough reason. who wants to join me? good times at my house last night. had a heart to heart convo with every drunk ass in this house and well yea that was fun.

check, check

Sat, 03 Apr 2004 18:47:00 GMT

im so bored, and im babysitting. um today i have to pack and then im heading over to my cousin's house. im gonna miss my girls!!!(better tina?) but it might be a good thing to get away from gc. everybody have an awesome spring break!!! p out

Fri, 26 Mar 2004 03:15:24 GMT

so today was pretty good, i had subs in like every class which is always good. i had gym make-up today--had to run a mile outside in the freezing cold, it wasnt that bad. then i had badminton. yea that was fun too hahah. then i came home and went to choir. now im just really bored. i just finished watching the second harry potter--so lame. im so excited for this weekend...WOO! later

Sat, 20 Mar 2004 21:53:02 GMT

yea so im sitting at home right now just chillin out...i didnt babysit today cause i didnt feel well but now im sooo bored that i have nothing to do. well im babysitting tonight too WOOHOO!! i hate my mom because when i stay home she likes to make me do stuff and i hate her cause i dont do it and then she goes into my room and picks up clothes and tries to make me hang them up when i know im just gonna wear them and never hang them up again yea so thats my fun saturday afternoon. hopefully people will call me tonight to keep me updated/entertained. later